I have no idea how much I weigh. I know I probably am a little over what I really should weigh, but I'm an hourglass shape, and I'm reasonably fit, so I don't really mind being a little over.
When I was a teenager, I barely ate at all. I was convinced I was fat and ugly, and that I'd be alone for all my life, that I didn't eat. And when I did, I felt so guilty and disgusted with myself that I'd feel sick, or make myself sick, to 'feel better'.
Luckilly, I realized what I was doing to myself, and I confided in someone and they got me the help that I needed.
Now, I am actually being truthful when I say that yes, I do try to eat healthy, but I don't freak out if i 'pig out' sometimes. I know my usual dress size, so if my clothes start to feel a little tight, I just eat less and excercise more.
I hope I have a healthy relationship with food now. I feel I have. I'm not obsessed anymore.
When I was a teenager, I barely ate at all. I was convinced I was fat and ugly, and that I'd be alone for all my life, that I didn't eat. And when I did, I felt so guilty and disgusted with myself that I'd feel sick, or make myself sick, to 'feel better'.
Luckilly, I realized what I was doing to myself, and I confided in someone and they got me the help that I needed.
Now, I am actually being truthful when I say that yes, I do try to eat healthy, but I don't freak out if i 'pig out' sometimes. I know my usual dress size, so if my clothes start to feel a little tight, I just eat less and excercise more.
I hope I have a healthy relationship with food now. I feel I have. I'm not obsessed anymore.
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